Sunday, November 12, 2006

hey hey.

many things have been happening this week.


let's see. i came back from guard duty on saturday morning... and before i knew it ... i have to rush down to tampines to meet pamela, pow wee and esther for make-up cell at sis meiyan's cell grp. cell group was great. pow wee was the impromptu guitarist for the day... and i guess the word that was spoken really impacted me in my current situation with regards to arise and build. sometimes i wonder why i pledge so much money for the building fund... but i guess starting out by pledging that amount of money is not the important thing... the most important thing is to finish it by fulfilling every dollar that i have pledged. i need faith. faith that says "my God will supply all my needs according to His riches and glory by Christ Jesus"... faith that says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me", faith that says "draw near to Me, and I will draw near to you."... God... I believe! help my unbelief!

okie... then after that the four of us cabbed our way down to expo... it was a very cold afternoon as it was raining like monkeys and elephants. by the way we reached, doors were already opened. was freezing inside the hall... but service soon started. was so happy to see gavin bringing his two junior friends (haha gavin! they don't look very JUNIOR when compared to you... LoL Kidding la bro. =P ).

service soon started... everything went well as usual... in fact... better than i expected. cos' i was so tired when i took the train from commonwealth station to tampines station when i was making my way for cell group. but somehow, when i was worshipping God, there is this supernatural strength for me to praise and worship God and listen to the Word of God by my most favourite preacher next to Ps Kong - Ps. Ulf!!! (wwwwoooO~~`) . there is something different in the air. could sense that this service is different.

The hall looked jammed packed (not suprising.. cos' ps ulf is our most favourite preacher (at least for me hehe.. ) Service was great...

During service, received a phone call from my parents... heard that my cousin was in labour... so after the service, elaine and I, together with madeline rushed down (ok.. not exactly rush... cos' we had to wait for madeline) to KK hospital to take a look. but somehow when we reached KK, the tiredness which disappeared when i was in church came back and hit me greatly... feel like sleeping... felt quite agitated in fact... and a bit vexed... mommy tried patiently to persuade me to sleep on the chair in the waiting room while we were waiting for news inside the room where the labour takes place... my cousin's mom was inside....i was feeling really tired and ...having the urge to go home and sleep, i nearly got into an arugment with my mom cos' i told her i wanna go home... but eventually... my dad was so nice tat he offered to drive me and madeline to our homes first...cos' madeline will be attending the sunday service and she needs some rest... reached home at 1230am. was sleepy... have not bathed.. wanted to sleep without bathing.. but dragged myself to the bathroom to have a quick shower... and then off i was... on the bed...




hmm... today my agitation and stress didnt wear off even though i had a good sleep... then i realised.. i was quite stressed cos' of the upcoming wallaby exercise starting next sun... there are so many things that i have to buy and prepare.. i have not prepared... I am afraid I am not prepared physically, and mentally as well. I am scared. Honestly... I don't know what to expect from these three weeks. many things run through my mind as the day went past today... i will miss God's presence for 3 weeks! oh man... i will miss 3 weeks of services and cell group... i will miss pastor phil's meeting on 24th/25th november!... i will miss my cell group ppl for 3 weeks... man... now i understand how andrew felt when he had to miss church that time (read it in his entry) God ... I don't think I can survive spiritually for these 3 weeks... i m so vulnerable to fall .

poh choo was joking the other day when she said you can watch the service over the internet 'live'... then she added... oh ya.. desert no internet... haha.. it's quite true... that's why i m quite sian...

i wonder how Jesus could survive in the desert in the wilderness for 40 days... without God's presence... without revival... without any cell group or service... but get tempted by the devil.

God O God take a hold on me...





timothy.



Posted by Timo-mo at 7:31 PM